My Masterpiece!

ALL BY MYSELF
Naths Ryder


When I was just a little boy,
My life was very interesting and full of joy.
Friends have seen me as being vivacious,
Because for me everything is precious.

I yearned to have a peaceful and meaningful life.
To love and to be loved all day light.
To have a stable job and family will unite.
But to my surprise, it has gone from sight.

I have grown up without proper guidance and direction
Doing everything without taking into consideration
I don’t know where I am leading
It seems that my life has no meaning.

All by myself, I faced the problems
Sorrows, pains and heartaches that overwhelms
I have ambitions but still remain dreams
Perhaps I can’t achieve those longings due to strains

Shyness is my biggest weakness
It hindered my emotional maturity and happiness
Half of my life and momentous times I miss
Many viewed me as unfriendly and so I feel uneasiness

I feel I’m not matured enough to be independent
I feel like a child in mind not prudent
I feel much seldom and boredom
Inside me I feel like having a frightful breakdown

I am a peaceful and shy person
Having many perspirations and only inspiration
I used to live in an anarchic situation
I’m frightened due to quarrels and contentions.

Everytime my heart beats faster
I am always thinking of what will happen later
It seems that every word they utter
Shakes my whole world, so I can’t move proper

Truly I’m not happy and contented at all
I feel like unimportant and pitiable
To do great things I’m disable
Maybe I should have to wait and be humble

How I wish to have a miraculous situation
How I wanted to feel a tender loving affection
I hope it will come to reality, not just an illusion
That I am living in a true imagination.

Terrifying Experience!

I had a duty that time, it was Saturday, February 7 and i had an AOD with the graduating BEED studs. After the usual routine of saturday duty, i went home at around 6:00 pm. I bonded with my family and after dinnner, i watched tv until the late newscast had over. I slept at around 11:30. Suddenly the phone alerted because of the message received. My mother opened it and read the message, she approached me in my room and informed about the message she received. It was coming from my honey Marecel. But i was confused why my mother handed me the cp when in fact, it could be done in the morning.

When i read the message, i was frightened and i really don't know what to do. Marecel informed me through text that she was robbed by three men at nakatulog siya for almost one hour dahil sinuntok siya nga mga magnanakaw. Akala pa nga ng mga tumulong sa kanya, eh patay na siya dahil nga matagal siya bago nagising dahil sa pagkakasuntok sa kanya. With this information, i felt pity for her for what had tranpired that day. You know, there were many bad thoughts that came out to my mind. What if . . . . . what if . . . . what if . . . what if . . . I don't want to speculate everything because she didn't disclose everything to me because it was only through text. I wasn't able to reply and comfort her that time because i don't have a load, louy na lang ta ani. I immediately planned to visit her the next day. But she texted me later that midnight that she's ok although, she was still trembling that time.

On Sunday afternoon, i went to their house to visit her. When we arrived, the place was quiet and peaceful and she opened the gate, as i looked at her, it seemed that nothing happened because she was vigorous and smiling, maybe because of my presence, ahem, tagam. We got inside the house because they don't want us to stay outside basig naa daw tong mga kawatan. We talked an i learned about what happened.

Midnoon that day, naa daw isa ka tigulang babaye na nagpalit ug pan pero dugay kaayo nagsige ug pili, morag naay gisegihag paniid sa palibot hangtud nga nakapalit na siya. Imbes nga mobalik ug gawas sa gate, milibot sa likod sa balay ang tigulang hangtud nga gibadlong sa silingan ug mao nga mibalik nag gawas. After a few minutes, miabot sila Ate Annie kay naay gikuha ug milarga ra pud dayon. After another few minutes again, miabot ang tulo ka lalaki nga nakamotor, ang isa nabilin sa motor na Honda Wave ug ang duha, miduol kang Marecel, nagpalit ug pan worth 2oo.oo but their money was 1,000.00. Kay wala man siyay sinsilyo sa regular niya nga kaha, she opened her vault to get money. After niya nakuha ang sukli unta, pagtindog niya, naa na sa duol ang isa ka tawo ug nag-tion sa iya ug 3.8 calibre pistol, mosinggit unta si Marecel ug tabang pero gisumbag siya sa kutokuto ug nakuyapan siya. Nakuha gyod sa mga tulisan ang P30,000.00 nga tinigom nila sa bakery.

After mga 30 minutes, naay nagpalit ug pan, sigeg ayo pero wala may mitubag, mao nga ang silingan mao ang miduol sa sulod ug ila nadiskobrehan nga nakatug si Marecel didto ubos sa kaha. They thought nga naay sakit siya mao nga nakuyapan, gitabang nila siya for alomost 1 hour. Pagkahuman, didto pa nahibaloan nila nga gitulis diay siya. Nagpa-blotter dayon sila pero ambut kung asa nang kalibutana nahimutang ang mga tulisan.

I was worried to think that she was the only person on duty in the bakery during her turn. But because of that incident, male companions were diployed each day in the store with her. I was relieved by that new arrangement of theirs.

After that, she asked me me stay their for the whole night and so i agreed because usually uli man gyod mi. We had a very good conversation and private stories for the two of us, i mean for our future lives together. Other details will be private, hehehh.

I don't want and I can't imagine of losing her in my life. She will always be the love of my life, come what may, kaya ayaw kung mawala siya sa akin, because inay-ayat ko na unay isu na.